i need to be needed.i repeat this over and over. but i don't think anyone gets it.if they did.it wouldn't be like this.i'm sick and tired of being in the middle of crap i don't need to be in the middle of, then getting criticized for it.
i love you. i'm sorry. its not your fault. its not my fault. its not anybodys fault. why does there have to blame?
i have this theory that i'm really really going to hate p.e. and geometry this semester. i have a new friend, i like that.
i'm wishing things would go back to the way they used to be. but in some ways, i like whats going on now.
theres a lot about me you don't know. i'm scared to let you in. why? i couldn't tell you. i'm more scared than i appear. in fact, i'm scared crapless, but i don't want to admit it. i'm afraid everything is going to change. i'm afraid the people who mean the most to me are just going to leave. i love you, why would you leave me?
this is all trivial and sad. i don't like it. not one bit.
things are a mess without it being obvious.
help me.
