you're so vain you probably think this blog is about you.

im tired of you acting like i don't annoy you. because i know i do.

so stop being two faced and tell it to my face... kay?


btw. this blog is about more than one person. so don't be like LINDSEY. why are you talking about me like this?

happy birthday maddie.

maddie has been my best friend ever since i was four.

she started our friendship with the words:
"your shoes are weird, you smell good" at ballet class.

and somehow. that made me want to be her friend.
her birthday is tomorrow. and im glad to have one more year with the greatest best friend that ever lived.

others may come and go. but maddie will always be there. i love her to death.

it's interesting how people make commitments they can't keep.

and i really hate when people do.

i was supposed to make a birthday sign with this girl tonight but she totally backed out. and the birthday girl isn't gonna be too happy on friday when her sign is not hanging on those ridiculous trees in the front of the school.

im tired.
and feeling sickly.

i wish someone would text me. it would make this evening much less boring. otherwise, from here its amazing bible race and wheel of fortune.

WHOPPEEEE.

i need to call to get tickets for sound of mucus. ehh. maybe i will. maybe i won't until then.

i love you. and i hope you love me too. because i think i'm lovable.
but hey, who am i to judge?

best weekend i've had in a while...

so this weekend i went skiing with the youth.

i COMPLETELY sucked at first. and by the end, i was going down the black diamond. yeah i was that good : )

and then we went to GRANNYS CHICKEN PALACE.
the place was so greasy i thought i would throw up. there was absolutely nothing healthy on the menu(not that i'm like obsessed with my weight or something.) and i ate french fries. when we first got to our table they brought this slaw stuff that was like straight up mayonaise and onions. just to give you an idea... there were underwear in the parking lot.
i know. cute.

then we went to the asheville mall. we went shopping and i bought maddie a valentines day gift at pac sun. then i bought a shirt at hollister. its cute.
we went to great american cookies and bought a cookie we didn't even eat.
then i was thirsty and bought lemonade at chik fil a. they gave me diet and i went up to the counter and asked them to change it. they didn't have ANYTHING left. they didn't even have any chicken. i was so pissed.

then this morning we went to cracker barrell and it was something along the lines of delicous.
then on the ride back i had josh laying on me the whollee time and we had fun. i know. it was PREETTTY fun. i loved it.

my mom is in the hospital right now... not fun. going to see her later after LASAGNA for dinner. i freaking hate lasagna.

but might as well be thankful for what i got...

love you. oh and happy late valentines day.

it HAS been a good day

mom is in the hospital. but feels good so thats good.

in the mountains with the best people everrr.

skiing tomorrow! : )

today was a good day.

i had a good day.

an uneventful one. but a good one.

my sister got her learners permit. very very very scary. but im proud of her.

sarah and will came to see me. it made me REALLY happy they care about me : )

they are my favoritest.

true story

i feel like this is made. just for me.

its been a suckish day.

well.

i got home. and mom was sick.

i ate dinner. and they messed up my order.

i expressed my true feelings to the guy i like. and he turned me down flat.

i was supposed to spend the night with my friend. she completely ignored my texts and calls.

im so tired of life being like this.

WHY does it have to be like this? im just.

fed up.

help. i need an escape.

I feel unwanted.

i feel neglected.
i feel rejected.
im tired of needing someone constantly
i wish i didn't cling to people so much.
i'm tired of people who pretend to be nice, but in reality they want nothing to do with you.

im so so so tired of being this person... why am i this person i don't know?
how have i become this?

2/4/09

today. is my sisters 15th birthday.

it snowed for her fifteenth birthday. i am very, very, very, jealous. stupid July birthday!
i made her muffins, and then put a candle in one, the muffins were still hot, therefore all the pink candle wax got in her muffin. i felt rather bad about it.
but tonight i have theatre, but after that, we are going to eat the most amazing chinese food in the entire world.
i just wish mom felt good enough to go... so until later. im going to play in the snow and help my sister celebrate! : )

i.

wish i had more friends that drew me pictures like these.

because these friends:
talk to me late at night.
encourage me.
always know the right thing to say.
make me feel better.
anddd
inspire me.

i complain a lot. i need to stop that.