i'm tired of being generic, of being what everyone else is. i just want to stand out in the crowd, in a good way, because i'm a good person. not because i'm odd, and no one likes me.
i have a total of one person attending my birthday party now. jee, this makes me feel good about myself. its not like i invited a bunch of people to begin with, but still.
i opened my birthday cards tonight, it feels nice to have money again.
i want to be loved because you love me, not for sympathy, just love. because love is the most simple, but complex thing, ever. and i want to find it. i think everyone does. but the truth is, aren't we all trying to find it? aren't we all trying to be someone who everyone loves? we all want to be someone needed by someone else. but my new philosophy is: if you love me you love me, if not, screw it, because the people who love me are all i need.
i'm extremely excited for tomorrow night, even if it is only sarah, we're going to have a good time. i'm also extremely excited for sunday. having youth again excites me, i've missed everyone. also we're serving at the homeless shelter on sunday which makes me feel good that i've done something good.
my sisters keeper isn't showing anymore at the carolina mall movie theatre, i was looking forward to a good cry. but i think we're going to see i love you beth cooper, which i think will be a good laugh.
i'm looking forward to fun.
i'm looking forward to pictures.
i'm looking forward to gossiping.
i'm looking forward to not sleeping.
i'm looking forward to making delicious pancakes.
i'm looking forward to a night with my best friend. (:
