tonight was just....

good.

we watched a louie giglio video called "hope when it hurts most"
it talked about that moment when you feel like the world has crashed all around you. he talked about how some teens had already experienced it, but if you hadn't you will.
well i've definitely had that moment. but something my mom wrote on her caring bridge really changed my perspective on everything.

she said(paraphrased) that she knew the day before she was diagnosed that God loved her. and she knew the day she was diagnosed God loved her. And was so confident that every day after. God was still going to love her the same amount.

and you know what? whether we're christian. or not. God loves us all. he wants whats best for all of us. theres those moments when we've known christ before but when that "moment" happens we wonder where is God in that? Why would God allow that to happen? Why would God fail us now? but in it all. God never fails us. God always knows everything that happens will turn out the way its supposed to.

I've been through that moment. I know what its like. but now that God has put everything in front of me that he has. I can't think that he's failed me anymore.

Those hugs tonight were the greatest. The arms around me while i was crying were the only ones i would've wanted to be there. The heat that radiated from all the bodies that care for me showed me the love of God through my youth group. I'm not trying to go all Jesus on everybody. But i truly believe that if you want to believe in him. He'll be there through everything that you need him for.

Jeremiah 29:11 says:
I know the plans i have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper, not to harm. Plans for a hope and a future.

and i believe in that 110%

i love you.
lindsey