if you're going to say you love me.

act like it.

...

yesterday was an odd day.
i can't hold grudges.
i'm sick.

i want to be at school right now. but i'm too sick.

i want things to be okay.
is that too much to ask?

today was a good day,

I'm so glad things can be okay now.

sometimes.

i sit here and think what you write, the statuses you post, what you think, might be about me.

but i know you've completely erased me from your life. i'm happy with this yet i'm not.
i don't know what to do half the time except pretend i'm okay.
sometimes i am.
sometimes i'm not.
i can't really differentiate it.

when i tell the truth things start getting messy. shouldn't it be the other way around.

i love you way too much for my own good...

this blog was about so many different people at once.
there are so many reasons that i don't know what i'm doing anymore...
oh well.
things will get better soon.
i'm hoping for them to anyways.

oh and did i mention it really bothers me when people say "loose" when they really mean "lose."
being loose is being flexible. to lose someone is to... not be flexible.

I'm upset and I don't know why,

I hate it when this happens.

i'm not going to sit here and wait...

wait for some boy to come along and break my heart.
i'm too busy, and frankly i just don't want it to happen.
i think that a relationship in high school is slightly pointless anyways because you're just going to break up unless by some off chance you become high school sweethearts, marry, and have 8 beautiful children. which is doubtful.
so for now... i'm just here. living&loving but not always in the way people think...

(:

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my friends are amazing...

&pandora radio=love.
lunch at bww is love.
life is love.
God is love.