it HAS been a good day

mom is in the hospital. but feels good so thats good.

in the mountains with the best people everrr.

skiing tomorrow! : )

today was a good day.

i had a good day.

an uneventful one. but a good one.

my sister got her learners permit. very very very scary. but im proud of her.

sarah and will came to see me. it made me REALLY happy they care about me : )

they are my favoritest.

true story

i feel like this is made. just for me.

its been a suckish day.

well.

i got home. and mom was sick.

i ate dinner. and they messed up my order.

i expressed my true feelings to the guy i like. and he turned me down flat.

i was supposed to spend the night with my friend. she completely ignored my texts and calls.

im so tired of life being like this.

WHY does it have to be like this? im just.

fed up.

help. i need an escape.

I feel unwanted.

i feel neglected.
i feel rejected.
im tired of needing someone constantly
i wish i didn't cling to people so much.
i'm tired of people who pretend to be nice, but in reality they want nothing to do with you.

im so so so tired of being this person... why am i this person i don't know?
how have i become this?

2/4/09

today. is my sisters 15th birthday.

it snowed for her fifteenth birthday. i am very, very, very, jealous. stupid July birthday!
i made her muffins, and then put a candle in one, the muffins were still hot, therefore all the pink candle wax got in her muffin. i felt rather bad about it.
but tonight i have theatre, but after that, we are going to eat the most amazing chinese food in the entire world.
i just wish mom felt good enough to go... so until later. im going to play in the snow and help my sister celebrate! : )

i.

wish i had more friends that drew me pictures like these.

because these friends:
talk to me late at night.
encourage me.
always know the right thing to say.
make me feel better.
anddd
inspire me.

i complain a lot. i need to stop that.