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sometimes, i think of all of the stuff we used to do together, the pictures we used to take, the conversations we had. and i'm jealous of those times... because i don't know where they went.
i feel like i'm falling apart with a lot of people. then i think its paranoia. then i don't know quite what to think.

i can't wait for the beach, i'm hoping to steal the nikon down there from my daddy and take some amazing pictures(:

my family is very blessed.

as we sat and opened presents yesterday morning, i think i realized just how blessed we were.
i love my family so very much (:
they can be annoying and my parents can be really strict, but all the same, i love them.

my life be like ooh ahh.

i love christmas.
&footie pajamas.
and christmas eve is one of my favorites<3
i look kind of nasty in this picture but i still like it.

merry christmas everyone.
i sincerely hope your year has been fantastic.
(:

i haven't blogged a lot lately.

so here's a summary.

i'm pretty happy. i can't wait for christmas. i'm frankly really,really,really sick of school. unfortunately, that part isn't optional.
i love christmas time. i love good cheer. i love people being nice. i love baking for friends.

i'm going over to jayme's tomorrow night. her and i are really good friends for only having seen each other in the flesh twice, ever. i'm really excited about this because i get to see kyle too (:

maddie's leaving tomorrow for florida. i'm going to miss her. i really don't like her going away, because i spend most of my time with her. but it will be alright, its high time i spent a little quality time with my sister. she's always gone.
have i mentioned i love christmastime?
i have the strong urge to go in my cul de sac and sing santa baby at the moment.
christmas used to be a lot more exciting when i believed in... well what makes christmas, christmas. even though, the real reason for the season is actually the person in which the holiday was named after, christ.
i can't really trust a lot of people anymore. they're all so sketchy. i guess, not really, but their friendship is. i can't decide whether this is because i'm not letting them in, or if its their fault.
its probably mine.
i blame a lot of stuff on myself lately, i think thats bad.
i love christmastime.
i love cookies.
i love friends i can trust.
i love text messaging.
i love pine trees in my house.
i love receiving presents.
i really love giving presents(this isn't to make me look good, i really do)
i love music. although i'm kind of sick of christmas music.
oh well, just a little update for everyone(who really reads my blog? probably no one, but in case you care, here it is (: )

the reality of this is.

i take far too many pictures of myself.
i realized this because i have to clean out an excess of pictures because our hard drive is full.
i think i've possibly already thrown out 100. or more.
i think this is awful.
i think i'll stop that...
as of next month.

201st post?

i look kind of awful, but i really like this picture(:

krnc.

I believe I am legitimately in like(:

awful.

I feel awful, I am awful.
it's been an awful day.

nobody blogs anymore

including myself.
i find this saddening.
oh well.
i guess its all just a phase.

its weird.

things are really coming together and falling apart at the same time.
i feel like i never care about school or homework anymore. my parents are convinced i don't. i do, i just have my mind on a lot of other things. it shouldn't be that way i suppose.
last night was really good. i think things are really going to turn around.
god has a plan.
sometimes the things we pray for/want aren't in the plan. its hard to understand that. A LOT.
but i think that patience is the main key in faith.
i don't know what i think anymore. i'm hypocritical. a lot.
its december. is anyone else shocked by that? it feels like this year has gone by insanely fast although the days drag by so slowly. i feel like i'm accomplishing nothing.
some of the people that mean the most to me are leaving in six months. this shocks and upsets me.
so much. :(
i don't know. its raining. hard.
i just want christmas to be here and for everything to be happy. and no school.

love.