&for a second there...

things turned out to be okay.
but i don't think they can stay that way for long.
i'm okay, i'm happy. but i'm not perfect.
i think its funny to think about how people view you.
i also think its funny how everything can change in a split second.
my thoughts are all over the place. i take that back. i'm all over the place.
i don't know what i'm thinking/feeling half the time. i don't enjoy it. but its part of life.

i guess things are dependent on how i make them turn out.
so i'm just going to enjoy it.


whatever.
happy halloweeen

sick.

I'm sick of girls saying. "I try my hardest just to get through the day." or "I keep my hopes up during the hard times."
I don't know many girls like this very well... but enough to know that they don't really know what "hard times" are.
hard times are not when your boyfriend breaks up with you. hard times are not when you get in a fight with your best friend.
those things will blow over, and you won't think much about it ten years from now. but hard times are the things that really effect your life, the things that are going to matter even fifteen years from now.
hard times are the things that form a REAL person, maybe that's why most of those girls are so fake.
I'm not saying these are bad people, nor the things they say are bad, but in my opinion these girls are ignorant to what's coming at them. because we all experience something that breaks your world into two pieces, me? my world has been broken and I don't know if that gives me the right to say these things, but it was bothering me, and I needed to get it off my chest.

I realize there are people who have it A LOT worse than me, I realize I'm lucky to have the family, friends, and church I do. but I don't have it all that easy either, I don't think anyone does. we all have our problems and issues that maybe no one even knows about...
but I don't know... just some thoughts.

when the two&five button on your phone doesn't work...

its most inconvenient.
the rain has ruined my phone ):

im just a little girl lost in the moment...

I'm so scared, but I don't show it.

I'm ridiculously scared of the future, but at the moment I'm so content I can forget about the future for a little while. I can honestly say this is an amazing feeling.
I hope things stay like this for a good while (:

it's a quarter after one, i've lost all control and i need you now.

the past year has been a roller coaster.
a year yesterday my mom was diagnosed with cancer.
it was the scariest day of my life.
but i'm okay. we're all okay, we're still living life. day by day.
i appreciate those people who have gotten me through the last year.
some of those people i'm not even friends with. but know this. you've made a difference.
i'm still terrified of the future. but as long as i'm holding your hand walking into it, i have nothing to fear.
i'm okay, we're all okay.
and someday, everything will be okay.

i looooove nerd day :D

love<3

and it just keeps getting better...

sally moore: happy birthday tomorrow, i'm worried i won't have time to write it then.
but i love you, very much.

you are the light to my lifeeee!
(:
(i wrote this in yellow, and it hurt my eyes, but its your favorite color, so whatever(: )

everything is falling together.

in a good way.
florida is tomorrow.
i'm pumped, beyond pumped really.
from 8:30 on i'm out of here til tuesday morning.
i've needed to get away for awhile now.
there's a very very small group of people that aren't bothering me right now. i can't quite explain why, but there is just a select group of people that can't get on my nerves,
and i loooove them(:

seperating the truth from the lies.

its been an amazing week/weekend.
i got to see some people i haven't seen in awhile, i got hugs<3, i got operation christmas child up and running for this year, i went to a very good football game.
i saw basically everyone that means something to me.
(: (: (: (:
this is good. very good.

i love my daddy(:

everything is just... right.

the past few days have been perfect. i think my weekend is going to be very, very busy. but awesome(:
friday night: babysitting.
saturday: virginia tech gameee in blacksburg!
sunday: church and seeing allll my loves(:
its going to be an amazing weekend. i feel it.

(:

perfect day.

(i'm forgetting everything that you said. i'm forgetting it for good. i don't need it. my life is fine without it. i don't understand how you can say you'll "never leave, i love you so much." but honestly, it doesn't matter anymore. things are done. done forever.
i'm done.)

in the end.

im going to end up so much better off, I'm so over you and this situation, I hope you have an awesome life, really I do. I'm so much happier without you.

besides the flu.

i'm so perfectly content right now
:D

seriously.

i don't purposefully do anything, to hurt anyone.
i don't wish bad things upon people, just because i don't like them.
i'm not that kind of person.
i wish you would see that in me.
i have enough going on as it is.
i'm going to forgive, and forget.
its not my problem anymore.
i don't care.
goodbye.

i miss you.

give me my life back.
i don't want this next week to happen.

i have the flu.

i haven't the slightest idea how i'm going to get away with missing this much school with southern too, i'm probably going to end up failing all my classes, i can't go to school until wednesday or thursday, i have to miss the crop walk, church, and my cousins birthday party.
thank you flu, you've officially ruined my week.

i'm sick.

i feel like crap.
theres men outside my house, painting, they're freaking me out.
i want to feel better. soon.