tonight was just....

good.

we watched a louie giglio video called "hope when it hurts most"
it talked about that moment when you feel like the world has crashed all around you. he talked about how some teens had already experienced it, but if you hadn't you will.
well i've definitely had that moment. but something my mom wrote on her caring bridge really changed my perspective on everything.

she said(paraphrased) that she knew the day before she was diagnosed that God loved her. and she knew the day she was diagnosed God loved her. And was so confident that every day after. God was still going to love her the same amount.

and you know what? whether we're christian. or not. God loves us all. he wants whats best for all of us. theres those moments when we've known christ before but when that "moment" happens we wonder where is God in that? Why would God allow that to happen? Why would God fail us now? but in it all. God never fails us. God always knows everything that happens will turn out the way its supposed to.

I've been through that moment. I know what its like. but now that God has put everything in front of me that he has. I can't think that he's failed me anymore.

Those hugs tonight were the greatest. The arms around me while i was crying were the only ones i would've wanted to be there. The heat that radiated from all the bodies that care for me showed me the love of God through my youth group. I'm not trying to go all Jesus on everybody. But i truly believe that if you want to believe in him. He'll be there through everything that you need him for.

Jeremiah 29:11 says:
I know the plans i have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper, not to harm. Plans for a hope and a future.

and i believe in that 110%

i love you.
lindsey

Why do you make me miss you so much?

I'd really like to know. Please tell me.

sunshine.

today was the first day in a few days that it didn't rain.
which was sunshiny.

seeing erin, elizabeth and sarah today kind of made the day a lot better.
not talking to cam today was 10 times harder than i thought it would be. i couldn't talk to him at lunch. which made me sad because he is my lunch period. him and his restless hand syndrome.

8th grade dance is a week away. YES. this makes me want to jump out of my skin and scream "YAYYYYYYYYYY!"
this symbolizes the end of middle school. the end of some of the worst years of my life.

but maybe some of the good ones too. Middle school has showed me who my friends are. and really? i don't have all that many good ones. most of my good friends don't even go to my school. they're the ones who really love me. who really care about whats going on in my life.

josh's dog has to be put to sleep. this makes me sad, because it makes him sad. i don't know.

ugh. my posts are pointless.

but they're me, getting my feelings out. and i don't know who reads them. but if you do. thank you. they're mostly just me complaining. which isn't good because in reality?

i don't have all that much to complain about. i have a family that loves me. a nice house to live in. and clothes that cover my body. i have great friends. and a facebook. and unlimited texting. i have a church family, that is amazing beyond everything i know. i have a big brother (not biologically : )) that loves me so much : )

i have most of everything i could ever want. and i'm not saying that to brag, i'm saying it mostly to compensate for all the complaining i do.

i love you, more than you know.

rain.

it calms me down.

yet puts me in the most horrible mood ever.
josh came to my house today to drop off dinner : )
that made my day basically.
then i had a fight with cam.

the eighth grade dance is a week away tomorrow.
the idea of that? puts me in a happy place.
Sarah is most likely coming over to help me get ready : ) pictures are going to be interesting seeing as i have no date now. : (
joy.

well this has been pointless enough.

i love you.

POSTSECRET :)

These made me smile today.

Everyone needs some smilin.

Crappy

It was a really crappy weekend.

I ran into a pole. Stayed in the ER til 3 am. My forehead is superglued together. Nuff said.
Then Sarah had to go to the hospital... That wasn't so good either.

My cousins came though and they were super cute.
And elizabeth came over :) which was sososo much fun.
I love her :)

What do I know?

I'm just some silly 13 year old.

Opinions.

I'm entitled to one.

Necessary

Tell me. Is it really necessary to:

•Be obsessed with twilight because a movie came out and Taylor lautner and Robert pattinson are SOSOSO hot? Is it all that necessary to write "TEAM JACOB" or "TEAM EDWARD" all over everything you own?
I think not.
I liked the book before the obsession swept up teenagers across America.

•Still put down George Bush because of something that happened in his past 8 years like it's the worst thing in the world that america's at war. It's happened before. And it's destined to happen again. A lot if other countries in the world HATE the u.s. Because we're so selfish. Really? I'd like to see you do a better job than George Bush did. I dont think Obama was the smartest choice for our nation. I don't at all. But I respect the fact he is president. And if he runs our country in the ground? More power to the people who voted for him.
I'm no political guru. But I'm entitled to my opinion.

•Display peace symbols all over everything you own. All of us want world peace. But we don't all display it on our shirts, pants, jackets, underwear, or God knows elsewhere. And personally. I was one of those that wore it on my jewelry or shirts or whatever. But I'm over it. Time for the rest of teenage America to.

This ones a tad more personal.
•Say you hate your parents. Because you don't. We've all said it. But I regret ever saying it. When your mom gets a life threatening disease. Tell me how much you hate her.

This ones even more personal:
• Be a total brat to me when all I've ever done is be nice to you. I'm questionable as to what I said or did. But I'm thoroughly hurt by the way you talk about me behind my back. I know because I have friends good enough to tell me the truth about what you say.

On the brightside: my cousins are coming this weekend! And glee is going to be one amazing television show.

i lied.

yesterday was atrocious.

when i stepped back and looked, i saw.

nothing all that good really happened. besides... well nope.

i'm asking for one good day. and you know what? i'm aware today and tomorrow will NOT be it. because we have EOG's. today is math. and i'm extremely worried i'm going to forget everything seeing as we learned ALL of this last year. because i was in algebra this year, i'm afraid i'm being penalized for not doing 8th grade math all year.

on the bright side:

i'm in love with this picture : )

Lalala..

I'm kind of tired of everybody at concord middle school. For suree.

They bother me a lot. As does someone else I know it bothers me you lie. It bothers me soooo muchhh.

I'm done.

However. Today was alrighttt.
Love you!

Today was great.

Youth was amazing...
I love my big brother!

: )

Church was good minus the fact that we went to 845. I liked it.

Wow. I'm tired. I'm going to starbucks with josh and my sister later yayyy :)

By the way: I think you're realllly stuck up. You are mean. You act like my best friend. But I know you're not. I'm so so so so so so done.

K?
I love you!

Last night was perfection.

Almost Maine went well.

The cast party was reallyreally fun.

But overall. The sleepover made my month. Jennie Megan and Elizabeth are my BEFFEFFS.
Our pancakes this morning were beyond good. You don't even understand. They were perfection. Along with the fried honey bun.

I love you!

i've been grounded for a week.

i'm back!

i need to see sarah. i haven't really seen her in like 3 weeks.

i need some sleep.

i failed the science EOG. i'm sure of it.

i need...

to stop saying I.

it makes me feel conceited.

Love.

100 little things that put me in a happy place;
( in no particular order)


1. Red skittles.
2.playing in the rain
3.summer days at the pool
4. Nightly talks with josh jones
5. The time I get with Sarah.
6. Going shopping with Maddie.
6. Little boys telling me I'm pretty.
7. Bigger boys telling me I'm pretty.
8. Ice cream.
9. A game of rook with the fam.
10. Christian songs.
11. Cookout milkshakes
12. Summer shows at OCT
13. Meredith performing.
14. the thought of the 8th grade dance.
15. Drawing pictures
16. Laminin
17. People who know what they are talking about
18. Getting makeup done at the mall when you have no interest in buying anything.
19. Two summers ago.
20. Pictures
21. Hilton head island
22. Golfing.
23.paddleboating.
24.passing algebra
25. Pictures with Sarah and kara
26. Loving who I am
27. Christianity
28. Freedom of religion.
29. Seeing him.
30. That giddy feeling get when I see him.
31. The perks of being a wallflower
32. How loud my dog snores.
33. Playing putt putt.
34. Walking on Maddies back
35. Protesting the chocolate shop.
36. Hannah warlick
37. Creamery.
38. Cherry lemon sundrop.
39. SASC leadership.
40. Disney world
41. Family vacations
42. British accents
43. Private series
45. Secret life of the American teenager
46. Talking to people I meet elsewhere.
47. The friends I have outside of school.
48. Faces on bandaids
49. Cupcakes
50.daniel and jeanna
51. Adam from alaska
52. Making fun of Obama
53. Saint simons island!
54. Biking the creeper trail.
55.Wakie wakie eggs and bakie!!
56. TEXAS.
57. "man! That guy was BUFF" josh jones
58. Dosi dos
59. Mars hill
60. ZOOLANDER.
61. Musicals
62. Zoe jumping the boarder
63. Speak
64. Childrens chior
65. Maddie Coressel
66. Taylor swift
67.text messages
68. Mikes pizza
69. When someone brings home something really good that wasn't on the grocery list
70. Cam piper
71. My daddy bringing me home presents from traveling
72. Peanut buter cookies
73. Music
74. My eighth grade dance dress
75.the smell of abercrombie and hollister
76. Good deals
77. Marc doitch goes BOOOOM!
78. Go stomp those shoes in the rain with emo kitties
79. Mr. Wilson's teaching
80. Good memories
81. Making videos
82. Notifications on facebook
83. Sarah slusarick
84. My fake uggs
85. Rent
86. Lil Wayne.
87. Pink
88. Videos from two summers ago (hi my name is chazz, mood swings, naro chin etc.)
89. Flair
90. Carosels
91. Kyle conroy in improv
92. Leaving parties to take pictures in bathrooms
93. My long talks with Noah medlin
94. WCMS
95. Almost Maine rehearsals.
96. Swinging
97. Lip gloss
98. Playgrounds.
99. Could you shave your legs a LITTLE quieter Please?
100. That I could think of all of these. :)

<3

My mouth hurts.

On the bright side?
I get my braces off in two months!
The end of school is 24 short days away. The science EOG is next week and we aren't close to prepared. I got all a's on my progress reports. Go me!?

This has been kind of a twisted day.

A girl at my sisters dance studio's house burnt down with her brother inside.
That's atrociously tragic.
Council was good for a change today.

Amidst everything that's going on, I'm making an a in algebra. I'm not gonna lie I'm extremely proud of myself.

I'm ready for summer to be here more than anything else.

random much?

so today i went to my sisters dance recital.
she said hi to me for like two seconds then like, left. i understand she wanted to hug all of her senior friends who won't dance with her next year, but still, i'm her sister, that deserves something, right?
plus i made her cookies for one of her friends birthdays today. i mean what am i? her servant?

seeing the recital made me realize how much i miss dance, yet i don't. i did it for nine freaking years, i think i stopped before i was in too deep.
it was good nonetheless, i really liked most of the dances.

hannah warlick is the cutest little girl ever. she is the sweetest thing EVER. she drew me this card that told me she loved me and today after i danced she comes up and says: "you did great"
i love her.

youth sunday went really well.
josh jones is my older brother.. i love him : )
i love church.
i love theatre.
i love you.

i really want to be a better photographer.
bad.
wellll.
this has been sufficiently random.
lindsey<3